Secret Passions

Passions can be hidden, but never buried.
All you have to do is look in my eyes
and there the fires blaze.
All the heat and desire I feel for you
can not be ignored for much longer.
I sometimes pretend not to notice you there,
but with every breath you take
my body aches for your touch,
with every smile, my heart burns for you.
There have been others,
but never have any touched my very soul
as you have.
You have melted the icy walls
that surrounded my heart.
I learned to believe in my dreams again
I do realize that we may never
be together as a couple but I
will always have that secret wish in my
heart, and I will continue to wish upon stars
and toss pennies into wells.
You mean more to me than you will ever know.
Thank you for being a part of my life!

Vik

Soul ignited

As the charred remains
Of my burned soul
Are scattered across your heart
I can only hope you feel the same pain
I've endured from the start
Only to share the remnants
With every other man
As if I never existed
To have a glimpse of my being
Held only in your mind's eye
Slowly being blinded
As you start to have yet another
Soul ignited......

Vik
To Be Loved


To be loved
Is to live forever in someone’s heart

To love is nothing
To be loved is something
And to love and be loved is everything

Its so easy to talk about love, to think about love
To wish for love
But it’s not always easy to recognise love
Even when we hold it in our hands

So remember
A heart that loves
Is always young.

Vik






This Feeling…

I don’t know why I feel this way
I don’t know why I’ve tried
But somewhere deep inside me
I can’t put you aside.

I see you there with him
I see you smile and hug him
And all I can think is…
Wasn’t that me yesterday?
Didn’t you say you loved me yesterday?
Or did I just dream it?

I don’t know the difference anymore
But if this is a dream
I hope it ends when the morning arrives
So we can go back to reality
A reality where you love me
And I love you…

I don’t know why I feel this way
I don’t know why I’ve tried
But somewhere deep inside me
You are my one true desire

VIK


The secret in his eyes…

There’s a sadness in his eyes
That no one can see
They tell a sad story
he hides it from his family
he hides it from his friends
he can’t turn to anyone
For no one will understand

he sits in the darkest corner in his room
he sits there and he cries all night
he won’t come out of his room when the sun creeps through his window
he’s scared of the world around him
he stands alone
There is no one to turn to
For no one will understand

The pain
The sorrow
The darkness
The uselessness he feels
These all help him hide behind the mask
he’s forever created for himself
No one understands

The twinkle that was once in his eyes has now gone
The smile he possessed has faded
he sits alone
he stands alone
he cries and cries alone
In the darkness that covers his room
No one understands

The secrets and the lies
If only someone would understand.

Vik













THE ONE I LOVE

She looked at me and said hello
And stole my heart away
It’s a feeling i must admit
Grows stronger every day

Her eyes are brown her hair is dark
She wears an amazing smile
I count the hours to be with her
But she makes it all worthwhile

For when I’m with her the sky is bright
At night, the stars all shine
She holds me close and with all her heart
She shows me she is mine

And if the day comes that we should part
And never touch again
My heart will stop it's beat with time
Because for me it will be the end

Vik

Sweet Beginnings

My Dearest Love...

You’re so beautiful to me;
You’re my sweet dreams of Heaven and Earth.
I imagine you’ve been a treasure to many
Since the day of your birth.

You bring me overwhelming joy,
Though we’ve just begun.
When morning has broken, darling,
You’re my temperate sun.

You’re the warm glow of candle light,
My twilight and my starry sky.
You make my eye’s leak crystal tears,
For the first time, through a blissful cry.

The foremost moment I saw your precious face,
You changed the vision of my world
And made it a more beautiful place.

You’ve fulfilled my all dreams;
You blew me soft baby kisses,
Which sweetened my air
And fulfilled my warmest wishes.

I remember the first gentle touch of your hand,
Our first kiss, our first loving embrace,
Like a sweet caress as you slowly kissed my lips,
Then softly my face.

With the just slightest touch of you’re lip’s on mine,
You brought me the most jovial sentiment.
You’re refreshing to me,
Like a fresh picked strawberry
Or the sweetest candy peppermint.

You’re the sanctity of my morning;
You’re my night-time, serene.
You’re my nocturnal fantasy, my love,
When I am in dream.

Before I lay my head to rest, though,
I pray to the lord for us, and then my soul to keep.  
I then tell God of you’re angelic face, so beautiful,
I imagine that all the saints weep.

You are my radiant and glowing the angel,
Sent down from Heaven on the wings of a Dove.
You’re everything I am looking for,
And for you, I plan to reserve all my Love.

So, when love finally happens for you and I,
You’ll have my Heart and all my Love,
Until the day I die.

You’re a rare and special person. Baby,
You enchant my Heart.
I thank God for the day I met you.
I think we're off to a wonderful start.


Vik

Sketches

I'd sketch the sun
To brighten your day
Trace thru the sky
Erase your clouds away

Sketching your heart
Gentle shading with my pen
For only you to see
My love so deep within

I'd sketch your body
Silhouette true of form
Outlined with my arms
To keep you safe and warm

I'd sketch my soul
Shading in I will do
Expressing my completeness
That I feel only with you

Sketching our hands
With golden rings we'd bear
Outlining our life's portrait
That only we two can share


Vik

Only You

My heart is like a head of cabbage
It’s really split in two
The leaves I’d give to others,
But the heart I’d keep for you

I pray the years be good to us
And all our hopes fulfil
That every day that passes by
Will find us closer still

Though sea’s may roll between
And many miles divide
Our thoughts dear in a moment
Can cross the ocean wide
Just listen to the message
In sending through the blue
Come closer, dear and whisper
Lest the world hears, ‘I love you’

They say it is a sin to love
I really don’t know why
But if you sin in loving a girl like u
You’re sinning all your life.

I swear by all the stars above,
It’s you I’ll always love.

Love Vik

One

Forever... we will be as one
Through all the bad times and through all the fun.

Forever... we will be you and I.
Forever... we will be, until the day we die.

Although we're not together, we're not that far apart.
Together we will be as one, deep down in our hearts.

Colours sometimes fade and feelings sometimes go away,
But our love will be here until the very last day.

So, if it's meant to be... we'll be together,
Holding each other in our arms.

We'll be as one, forever

Vik

My Life

My life is boring...
My life is evil.
I am known as the beast

I am full of pain, hurt and angry.
I am full of sorrow and sadness.
My heart is the black smoke colour,
Which pours from my lungs every time I exhale.
Yet, I see through the rainbow of hell.

I pray for God to take me away
From this hell in which I live,
But I am still here when I wake.
God tells me, "Another day in this game."
But everyone is against me from the start.
I am still playing this evil game.
This game is my life,
Until my life is no more.
This is my life
And this is my end.

As I pick up the knife
And put it to my wrist
I whisper goodbye.
It started with my life
And ended with my knife…

Vik

Just another dream

I think of you as a dream
That will never come true.
A silver-coloured stream
Of rainbows and roses, too.

I try to desperately seek
What it is I am looking for.
As I walk down the street
And my heart beats even more.

A secret or a mysterious lover
Each day and every night
My feelings I try to cover,
As you walk into my sight.

Still I think of us in my sleep,
Dancing and holding each other.
Then I wake up in a heartbeat
And wonder if you were just another.

Vik

My Heart

I sit
My eyes yearn
with the passion to see you.
I feel pain and sorrow
Because you aren't with me
I look up
To the sky above
I love you with all my heart

I know that my love
Might be too far-fetched
I know that my love
Might not be "all that"
But my love
Is truly from my heart

I love you
It is true
I love you
With all of my heart

Vik

My dreams

I see it all in my dreams,
A place away from home,
I wonder around the world with u
Going to all the most beautiful and secluded places…

Dreams
Dreams
Dreams


All dancing in the wind,
Where only us two can be seen,
With dreams
Dreams
Dreams
Dreams of far away and distant places
Dreams of moving away from it all
Just us
Laying in the blowing wind
With the flowers dancing around us…..

Dreams
Dreams
Dreams

01/11/04

VIK

Love As A Bird

If I compare love to birds, I’d say love was once a dove,
Cooing and close.
Another time love was a swan,
Full of grace
An owl, wide-eyed and wise,
And a sparrow, an eagle etc etc..
But love has also been a chook
With its head on the block,
And a hammer instead of a hatchet.
And I remember love like a seagull, meeting a propeller,
Not much left afterwards.
And if today love is like a squashed birdie corpse on the road of life,
I live I trust that, of all the birds, love is most like the phoenix.

Vik

Just Be Me

She’s teaching her to love him,
She’s teaching her to kiss,
And even though their lips do touch,
You know they sometimes miss.

And they both start laughing,
Like it’s something funny,
And whenever I see her,
I get butterflies in my tummy.

I don’t know why I love her,
I don’t know why I’ve tried,
But somewhere deep inside me,
I can’t put her aside.

So all I can do is watch them,
And always just be me,
Because no matter how much I try,
I can’t make her love me.

Vik

Holy father full of grace
  
Holy father full of grace
Bless her happy face
Bless her hair that tends to curl
Keep her away from other boys
Bless her hands that are so delicate
Tell her to keep them where they belong
Bless her eyes that are so sweet
Tell her they knock me off my feet
But above all this, keep us together
Not for now, but for now and forever

Vik

Guardian Angel

God sent me a Guardian Angel,
A true blessing from above;
To hold my hand and help me,
To fill my emptiness.. with Love.

She takes my burdens upon her,
Trying to relieve my sorrow;
She dried my tears with a smile,
Assuring me, there is a tomorrow.

But, I cannot love this Angel,
The way that she should be loved;
I really don't deserve him,
So, again I ask, "Why me".

To me, she is like a precious jewel,
Or a gentle summer rain;
Sharing her wisdom and strength,
Not deserving my pain.

I want to keep her in a special place,
Where my treasures are for only me to see;
To show her how speical she is,
And very important to me.

But, I'm not able to care For
this wonderful gift I've recieved,
So, I've asked God
For her pain to be relieved.

I will place her love inside me,
Where the world cannot touch;
I will kiss her gently goodbye,
Letting her know I'm thankful and love her much.

There are others who needs her help,
Who can care for her better than I,
So, tonight, I kiss my Guardian Angel,
Telling her thank you and goodbye.

Vik

For What Its Worth

Cool spring breezes finding there way to those who need it
Those who have nothing but the most elementary of satisfactions,
Lost in a sense of self-absorbed sorrow, hardened by being alone
In a world catering to those with soul mates.

These are the refugees of life, if you will,
The nameless...faceless people you pass by every day
Without ever giving a second thought...
They are great in numbers, yet unnoticed.

Why?  I'll tell you why! Because they're alone
Either by choice or by sheer fate...
Or just an unevenly stacked deck.

Some have pounding hearts of desire, yearning to be fulfilled
By meeting that one person they see and feel in their dreams
But can never reach out and touch.

I want to touch you...I need to touch you...
I can't take it anymore! I need to feel
The soft caress of your skin next to mine
Sending the most incredible passionate feelings up my spine.

Two hearts connected permanently
Never to be removed or parted
by sorrow and lonesomeness... making life worthwhile.
The long gruelling test would now be worth every moment
And savoured for the rest of eternity.

VIK

Death of my Soul

"I love you" is what you said
But it is him that you went with instead

I was always there for you the way I said I would
All my friends said I need to leave you, inside I thought I should

It was everything you did that made it all seem right
But now you and your love are out of sight

You were so caring, precious, and sweet
Of my heart you would always have a piece

We will always be together I used to think and say
Now loneliness is the price I have to pay

I'm sitting here praying you will come back soon
It's as if my life burst like a balloon

I wish I had your love, I pray you were mine
I even think of you all the time

Do you know how much meaning you had in my life
Let me put it like this- when you left me, it was as if
I had been stabbed with a knife

I don't think it's right or even fair
Because your love was one thing I never wanted to share

When your arms were wrapped around me I never felt scared
I knew if anyone tried to hurt me you would be there

It's as if I'm about to die
But all I'm doing is saying goodbye.
VIK

AS I sit by this cottage
As I sit beside the cottage
And gaze across the sea
My thoughts fly wondering backwards
To a land that used to be
I think of one who loved me
Who was ever by my side
And I wonder if she thinks of me
Across the rolling tide.
VIK